it will get better because you're awesome

SPAWN XVII: MELODIE!

ucslugchick: hola

SPAWN XVII: wow, long time no see, how you been doing?

ucslugchick: could be better, but let's just ignore that

ucslugchick: how have you been?

SPAWN XVII: Yeah, I'm trying to ignore some things as we speak

SPAWN XVII: I think of you whenever we have "I Love Lucy" at work

ucslugchick: lol

SPAWN XVII: HA HA, I work at a used music store now. I spend all day surrounded by music, movies, and video games. It's like sitting at home, but I get paid for it

ucslugchick: lol

ucslugchick: that's awesome

ucslugchick: i watch my 6 seasons over and over again

ucslugchick: lol

SPAWN XVII: it's cool enough, I feel prety comfortable now,

ucslugchick: i never get tired of them

SPAWN XVII: HA HA

SPAWN XVII: That's awesome

SPAWN XVII: it's like me and Seinfeld

ucslugchick: lol

SPAWN XVII: I just play all the seasons on my computer on random

ucslugchick: hahaha

ucslugchick: same here

ucslugchick: but i go in order

SPAWN XVII: Ah

SPAWN XVII: I so wanted to buy the complete series for you, it came in this really cool box

SPAWN XVII: but I'm sure you already have it

ucslugchick: lmao

ucslugchick: yes.. i got them as gifts throug out the years

SPAWN XVII: cool

ucslugchick: now i want all the volumes to looney tunes and friends

ucslugchick: lol

SPAWN XVII: ha ha

ucslugchick: i have one

SPAWN XVII: I saw this awesome popeye early series tin I want

ucslugchick: lol

ucslugchick: isn't it funny how humans can be easily entertained

ucslugchick: lol

SPAWN XVII: he he, yeah

SPAWN XVII: well, I think it's cause I'm still such a kid at times

ucslugchick: i think we never grow out of being kids

SPAWN XVII: I love to explore so many things,

ucslugchick: so what are you up to?

SPAWN XVII: Eh, just working and trying to stop being such a spendtrift

SPAWN XVII: I have another job working in an after school job with kids

SPAWN XVII: but at this moment, I'm taking time off of school

SPAWN XVII: I need to get my act in gear again soon for that

SPAWN XVII: i'm just trying to hang on and make sure that I finish with something I know I will enjoy and be able to finish in general at school

ucslugchick: hahaha

ucslugchick: i meant... what are you doing right now

ucslugchick: lol

ucslugchick: but nice to know what you HAVE been up to

SPAWN XVII: Ugh, ask a simple question

ucslugchick: hahaha

ucslugchick: ok

ucslugchick: nevermind

SPAWN XVII: Um, I'm up, trying to excersize frustration online with video game news, music and.... that's about it

SPAWN XVII: I was cleaning my room

ucslugchick: hahaha... something that I've been needed to do

ucslugchick: i keep telling myself to clean, but i just get destracted and then sleepy

ucslugchick: lol

SPAWN XVII: i got the kithen done

SPAWN XVII: so, where are you living now

SPAWN XVII: ?

ucslugchick: san diego

ucslugchick: going to graduate school at USD

ucslugchick: i think I'm going to live in SD for awhile after I graduate because I love it so much

SPAWN XVII: Ah, I thought you already graduated?

ucslugchick: not from grad school

SPAWN XVII: AH! Well, Kudos to you

ucslugchick: hahaha

ucslugchick: thank you

ucslugchick: i just graduated in june for undergrad

ucslugchick: that's probably where you got mistaken

ucslugchick: sometimes I wish I took a year off

SPAWN XVII: no way, get it done

ucslugchick: but i guess it's better just to get it all over with

SPAWN XVII: you'll be like me

SPAWN XVII: yeah, you're doing good, why stop now?

SPAWN XVII: I had to leave cause I wasn't doing good like I used to, so I needed to take time off

ucslugchick: and why was that?

ucslugchick: if you don't mind me asking

SPAWN XVII: I just made a bad transition, didn't really have my foot fully in the door. I let the people around me become too much part of my life, it consumed me too much and I let it disrupt my classes. So I was suspended for a semester after they year was done. I just can't handle love and work and school at one time. So I let it slide, then went back, but then again, right away a family member died. I had a rough summer cause my friend and uncle died and I broke up with my girlfriend who just used me alot. With that death in the beginning of the semester, I should have just left, but I stayed, then my ex came back, really destroyed me, and a few other things, now I can't go back for awhile less I appeal, which I plan on doing. Also, I had a demoralizing job and my roommate never talks, so it was tough

SPAWN XVII: I feel I can go back now, but I need to really take it slow this time, too many major classes at once too hurt, alot of it wasn't too great, plus, UWM is much bigger than my old school, so it was a harsh transition

SPAWN XVII: Sometimes the cards just aren't right

SPAWN XVII: I was awesome at my old school UW-Waukesha, but UW - MIlwaukee was a bit too unforgiving for the time

ucslugchick: woah...

ucslugchick: alot went on

ucslugchick: sheesh

SPAWN XVII: yeah, i seem to find it all

ucslugchick: but at least you saw what you did wrong and feel ready to go back

SPAWN XVII: yeah

SPAWN XVII: I was pretty upset it didn't work when I went back though last year

SPAWN XVII: I was so ready, but when my other tio died, I should have said "this isn't a good sign" I let my relationships hurt me too much after that, and bam, out again

SPAWN XVII: I will finish it damn it

SPAWN XVII: even if I move back home, which seems like I should

ucslugchick: life... such a rollorcoaster ride

ucslugchick:

SPAWN XVII: yeah

SPAWN XVII: I need to just count my blessings a little more to stay on course

ucslugchick: so what would be th reason for you to move back in with your parents?

SPAWN XVII: save money, keep myself a little more responsible

ucslugchick: i see

ucslugchick: for me, it the opposite

ucslugchick: well... i can understand the money thing, but i think I am more responsible when I'm living away from home

ucslugchick: i get more peace and quite

ucslugchick: and self motivation

SPAWN XVII: I mean, on my own, I do get up on time now, I do go to work and get then when I am supposed to, I don't fight with parents, but yeah, maybe I just fool myself with the responsible thing, I can do it, I just need to make myself more ridgid

ucslugchick: i get distracted if I'm home

SPAWN XVII: i get distracted too

ucslugchick: and jus tin general... i would get into way too many areguements with my parents

ucslugchick: and they would want to control my life

ucslugchick: i'm better when I'm away from them

SPAWN XVII: yeah, I guess you're right, i see myself the same way

ucslugchick: the moment i moved doen to SD. I realized how independant I became

ucslugchick: down*

ucslugchick: such an awesome feeling

SPAWN XVII: well, this semester (even though I am out of school I still vew life in "semesters") still has alot to offer, I may get an internship, and I still play with the Latino group on campus, as well as the south asian group, so I do have alot to keep me grounded, but I will dedicate this year to being better than I have before and staying away from those who hurt me

ucslugchick: yeah... it's like getting some expereince ... getting yourself prepared

SPAWN XVII: well, I should finish what I started. Just please say a prayer for me, and I will hold you in mine, ok?

ucslugchick:

ucslugchick: fo' sho'

SPAWN XVII: thanks for the talk, it's been so long since we've had one. Miss you and glad to see you are doing just fine.

ucslugchick: it was good talking to you too

ucslugchick: hope things get better

ucslugchick: no...

ucslugchick: you know what

ucslugchick: it will get better because you're awesome

ucslugchick: and knwo you're stuff

ucslugchick: you'll finish and before you know it, you'll be happy and doing what you love

SPAWN XVII: Thanks so much Melodie, that means alot

ucslugchick:

SPAWN XVII: God bless you

ucslugchick: no prob

ucslugchick: God bless you too

ucslugchick: have a good night

SPAWN XVII: you too. Sweet dreams

SPAWN XVII: Good bye.

ucslugchick: bye

ucslugchick: nighty night