I Belive in Miracles

SPAWN XVII: Yeh, yeh!
AshleyDubbs: ??
SPAWN XVII: um, hello
SPAWN XVII: whats up
SPAWN XVII: ?
AshleyDubbs: heyyy
AshleyDubbs: notmuch
AshleyDubbs: watchin the office on tbs
SPAWN XVII: ha ha
SPAWN XVII: I didn't know they were in reruns now
AshleyDubbs: on tbs
SPAWN XVII: so guess who I saw today
AshleyDubbs: ?
AshleyDubbs: sept?
SPAWN XVII:
AngelaAshleyDubbs: eek
SPAWN XVII: HOLY SHIT! I have a doosy of a story to tell you about September too
SPAWN XVII: BUT, back to Angela
AshleyDubbs: hahahahaaha
SPAWN XVII: I talk very rarely to Angela, cause she's a jerk, and I am jerk cause she is
SPAWN XVII: Anyways, a friend of her's, probably her best friend, atleast in the sense that she had no one else left that close, but not really her best friend, well, she packed up and ran off to LA with her boyfriend
AshleyDubbs: hmmmmm
SPAWN XVII: Angela said she ran off with her "stupid boyfriend"
AshleyDubbs: haha
SPAWN XVII: And I said, "Ah, stupid boyfriend living, sucks that it takes away people from their friends, doesn't it?"
AshleyDubbs: hahahahahahahahaa
SPAWN XVII: An obvious slam on her, but I did ask if she was ok, but no response
SPAWN XVII: Well, I heard this chaotic story about september, I guess from her, and it made me think
AshleyDubbs: hmmm
SPAWN XVII: I sucked it up, texted Angela that I was sorry for being a jerk, and that I am just glad she is safe, and that "ps" I am sincerly sorry for the loss of her friend
SPAWN XVII: She said1" thank you, alex. Life is too short for either of us to be petty."
AshleyDubbs: wow about time she thought about that
SPAWN XVII: yeah
SPAWN XVII: So that was 7 this morning, and around 10:30, she calls me. I'm sleeping, with my phone under my chin litteraly cause I'm sleeping on my back, and I pick up, say good morning, and the best I can recall was her saying hello, and asking if I would visit her at her work
SPAWN XVII: she said it would give her something to do
SPAWN XVII: I said maybe, I fell asleep, woke up at 1:00, got up, got ready, and wasn't sure if I should, that maybe tomorrow, but I also knew, it's rare for her to even ask of this, this is the first time she deliberately and fully asked me to see her, and that I vowed to not let this go to waste and I would see her today
SPAWN XVII: So, I get dressed, make my self look hella good, like going out clubbing good, and head out
AshleyDubbs: hahaha yes!
SPAWN XVII: She works in this little cafe in cudahy, actually, just down the road from CIty Lounge. Can you believe that?
AshleyDubbs: hah nice!
SPAWN XVII: I pass it by address, not knowing it, then I see it after a turn around. It's this little dive of a cafe, looks like a house. This impossibly running place in the middle of no where
SPAWN XVII: I walk in, and see a girl sitting at the counter, it's her, she looks up, and comes to me with a smile
SPAWN XVII: I get a hug, and she gets me some food i asked for, being pressed for time, I knew I would be late for work, but I didn't care.
AshleyDubbs: haha
SPAWN XVII: in the first 10 minutes, I saw something odd, for one thing, it was her. And I say this with the utmost humilty, Angela, got fat
SPAWN XVII: I mean, I have never called anyone fat. Selena is thick, Ellie is too, one of my flings, Sariah was big, but almost fat, but since her frame was big, it didn't matter.
SPAWN XVII: Angela... she becme fat, even gaining alot of weight since that Indian night I saw her when I met Veronica
AshleyDubbs: oh wow
AshleyDubbs: hahahahahaha
SPAWN XVII: I just wondered in an instance, what happened to her? What kind of life is she living? Is it with Joy? How could I keep myself, and even slim a little, and her grow to twice her sice
SPAWN XVII: size*
AshleyDubbs: wow
SPAWN XVII: the resturant was this pathetic looking place. Not small and meek, but shabby and run down. I almos tfelt like this was crap, that even though I don't give shit aobut it in Idnaian when I go home to see my relatives, but this time, it just wasn't good at all
SPAWN XVII: I foudn that in a moment, I wanted ti just cry at the sight of her
AshleyDubbs: :-(
SPAWN XVII: I saw a failed society, I saw a failed family, failed men (her father and boyfriend), and even a small failed me, all inside a girl who has done everything but fail
SPAWN XVII: and, for the first time in awhile, I felt sick to my stomach. I was nervous, and lost my apetite, just like I did when we broke up and I was hanging into dear life with her, Icould never eat, it took me awhile to get over that, and I don't know what it means for it to be back
AshleyDubbs: ughhhh
SPAWN XVII: We barely talked, not knowing what to say, me getting madder and madder each time she asked me a question to an answer I had already told her
SPAWN XVII: Even at one point talking about Keila, and even divulging some information that I never even knew about her, and got angry at the idea she kept it from me
SPAWN XVII: Also even upset with Angela telling me Keila was my best friend, all the while knowing that she was my goddamn best friend, and only Keila became it when Angela fucked me over
AshleyDubbs: grrrr

SPAWN XVII (10:12:49 PM): ok
SPAWN XVII (10:12:51 PM): still there?
SPAWN XVII (10:12:53 PM): Damn
SPAWN XVII (10:12:57 PM): Can you do me a favor?
AshleyDubbs (10:13:31 PM): ?
SPAWN XVII (10:13:49 PM): I wanted to save that conversation, but this damn thing started to upgrade on me and made me go all the way, can you select all, and copy and paste it in a blog?
SPAWN XVII (10:13:57 PM): I want to retrieve it
AshleyDubbs (10:14:18 PM): sure
SPAWN XVII (10:14:07 PM): ok
SPAWN XVII (10:14:09 PM): So anyways
SPAWN XVII (10:14:11 PM): Where was it?
SPAWN XVII (10:14:25 PM): Can you redo the last sentence I sent before I signed off?
AshleyDubbs (10:14:47 PM): what
SPAWN XVII (10:14:45 PM): I send you a message saying she fucked me over
AshleyDubbs (10:15:21 PM): i'll myspace this to you
SPAWN XVII (10:15:14 PM): ok
SPAWN XVII (10:17:40 PM): say when
AshleyDubbs (10:18:06 PM): done
SPAWN XVII (10:18:51 PM): right
SPAWN XVII (10:19:54 PM): When Angela fucked me over, and not in the sense that the break up was what fucked me over, none of that mattered. It was the totaly disregarding of me as a friend, a person of history and a human being, taking advantage of all the support I gave her
SPAWN XVII (10:20:18 PM): So here we go again? I don't know, it was harsh, i didn't give her many hints at the questions she shoudl have known
SPAWN XVII (10:20:46 PM): my jobs, or other things, but I wasn't mean, I guess I just didn't know how to interact with her. Not in that environment
SPAWN XVII (10:21:11 PM): The other day, I had a desire to call her, to hang out with someone fun, someone that made me laugh, but I don't know what I would have done if I had called her and she did come over.
SPAWN XVII (10:21:26 PM): I think the shock of seeing her in the state she is in would have plowed me over
SPAWN XVII (10:21:37 PM): it's insane how she looks
SPAWN XVII (10:21:52 PM): I can barely see the girl I fell in love with underneith all of that
AshleyDubbs (10:22:39 PM): hahahaha
SPAWN XVII (10:22:40 PM): But in a sad way mind you. The time for me to go had long gone, and I finally decided to bolt all the way back to waukesha from cudahy
AshleyDubbs (10:23:21 PM): oh geez
SPAWN XVII (10:23:19 PM): She said, "Can I walk you out?" I said sure. put aside the plate of food i couldn't finish. (The only thing I finished was the orange juice)
SPAWN XVII (10:23:36 PM): We walked outside, and we gave each other a hug, a hug that actually lasted too long
AshleyDubbs (10:24:05 PM):
SPAWN XVII (10:23:51 PM): a hug of longing, and the thing was, it wasn't just me
SPAWN XVII (10:24:06 PM): She was in it too, almost too much for sucha girl to even do
SPAWN XVII (10:25:03 PM): We let go, said by, then another hug, this time more intense from her, me with one hang, her with both arms, not knowing how long to keep it. I gave in and squeezed her, and I let it fly, "I miss you" to which she replied right away without hesitation, "I miss you too"
SPAWN XVII (10:25:33 PM): I pulled away, and gave her a kiss on her cheek, still remember the smell and the taste of her skin
AshleyDubbs (10:26:17 PM): aww
SPAWN XVII (10:26:03 PM): a bye, one last touch in blessing on her forehead, and I was off
SPAWN XVII (10:26:16 PM): I wanted to cry, it was tragic to see her as she was, where she was
AshleyDubbs (10:26:46 PM): thats so sad
SPAWN XVII (10:26:35 PM): she even gained weight, I swear, since I last saw her at my place just a couple months ago
SPAWN XVII (10:26:48 PM): her hair is short, like a doubty old school teacher
SPAWN XVII (10:27:11 PM): she could dress sexy without trying, cause she was, and now, I see a withered being, someone trying to get out to live again
SPAWN XVII (10:27:35 PM): and quite frankly, I don't know how, or if, that is ever going to happen
AshleyDubbs (10:27:58 PM): ughh
SPAWN XVII (10:28:06 PM): She said at one point, "Do you see Dheeraj often?" and I said "Yeah, all the time. He's my best friend."
AshleyDubbs (10:29:11 PM): aww
SPAWN XVII (10:29:18 PM): she misses us
AshleyDubbs (10:29:39 PM): ya
SPAWN XVII (10:29:25 PM): I can see she misses being young
SPAWN XVII (10:29:30 PM): she is with everyone older
SPAWN XVII (10:29:43 PM): her boyfriend, her employer, the patrons, everyone
SPAWN XVII (10:34:38 PM): Well, it was pretty intense
SPAWN XVII (10:34:46 PM): I don't know what now
SPAWN XVII (10:34:57 PM): I want to say it was nice to see her, but not yet, atleast tomorrow,
SPAWN XVII (10:35:10 PM): maybe see her after i drop off my mom at the air port
SPAWN XVII (10:35:11 PM): who knows
SPAWN XVII (10:35:33 PM): All, I know is that it was a chance in a life time, one I never thought would happen AshleyDubbs (10:36:17 PM): ya i agree
SPAWN XVII (10:36:17 PM): Any advice, ideas, or comments?
AshleyDubbs (10:37:02 PM): hah
AshleyDubbs (10:37:08 PM): i never expected this to be your story
SPAWN XVII (10:37:00 PM): ha ha, yeah? what did you?
AshleyDubbs (10:37:59 PM): i have no idea lol