Fizzinator2001 (9:26:33 PM) : Hey!
KajraNight (9:26:38 PM) : hi
Fizzinator2001 (9:26:49 PM) : Guess who
KajraNight (9:26:59 PM) : i dont know
KajraNight (9:27:02 PM) : faisal?
Fizzinator2001 (9:27:08 PM) : close\
KajraNight (9:27:12 PM) : i dont know
Fizzinator2001 (9:27:13 PM) : I am dark
Fizzinator2001 (9:27:16 PM) : and have glasses
Fizzinator2001 (9:27:22 PM) : when I don't have my contacts
Fizzinator2001 (9:27:29 PM) : Um, I am better looking
KajraNight (9:27:36 PM) : i dont know
Fizzinator2001 (9:27:43 PM) : Mexican
Fizzinator2001 (9:27:53 PM) : I'm a Mexi-CAN
Fizzinator2001 (9:27:59 PM) : Alright, it's Dominguez
KajraNight (9:28:04 PM) : o hi
Fizzinator2001 (9:28:23 PM) : Whoa, don't sound so enthusiastic
KajraNight (9:28:31 PM) : no no
KajraNight (9:28:31 PM) : sorry
KajraNight (9:28:34 PM) : i just had
KajraNight (9:28:36 PM) : a bad day
Fizzinator2001 (9:28:46 PM) : Yeah? What happened?
KajraNight (9:28:55 PM) : lots of things
Fizzinator2001 (9:30:07 PM) : Hmm, things suck, esspecially when they happen in a dense capacity
KajraNight (9:30:17 PM) : yea
Fizzinator2001 (9:30:34 PM) : um, if it makes you feel better, I hate my roommate right about now
Fizzinator2001 (9:31:55 PM) : so come on, fill me in, it's been awhile since we've even talked, what's going on
KajraNight (9:32:12 PM) : really nothing
KajraNight (9:32:13 PM) : just
KajraNight (9:32:17 PM) : everything
KajraNight (9:32:20 PM) : that
KajraNight (9:32:21 PM) : happens to me
KajraNight (9:32:24 PM) : lately
KajraNight (9:32:25 PM) : i mean
KajraNight (9:32:27 PM) : everything
KajraNight (9:32:32 PM) : that has been happening to me
KajraNight (9:32:37 PM) : has been bad
Fizzinator2001 (9:33:36 PM) : is someone messing with you?
KajraNight (9:33:41 PM) : kind of
Fizzinator2001 (9:34:03 PM) : who
KajraNight (9:35:28 PM) : just some people
Fizzinator2001 (9:35:31 PM) : you're still mixed in that drama from last year, aren't you
KajraNight (9:35:38 PM) : kind of
KajraNight (9:35:39 PM) : not
KajraNight (9:35:41 PM) : thought
KajraNight (9:35:43 PM) : though
KajraNight (9:35:45 PM) : it came back today
Fizzinator2001 (9:36:01 PM) : why, what happened today?
KajraNight (9:38:01 PM) : its nothing
KajraNight (9:38:02 PM) : really..
Fizzinator2001 (9:39:22 PM) : Come on Kashfia, I've been trying to be your friend for sometime, you've got to let somebody in, I mean, I'm just trying to talk to you. Sorry if that sounds stern or mean 
KajraNight (9:39:32 PM) : no its ok
KajraNight (9:39:38 PM) : why are u talking from faisals sn?
Fizzinator2001 (9:40:05 PM) : cause I'm at his place, he's running around doing stuff, so I was just fooling around on his computer
Fizzinator2001 (9:40:58 PM) : his aim was open, I saw your name, figured you don't really talk to me on my name, and I just wanted to say hi, and maybe just a little more than hi, cause that's all I ever get
KajraNight (9:41:12 PM) : im sorry
KajraNight (9:42:57 PM) : I'll try to be a better friend
KajraNight (9:42:59 PM) : idont know
KajraNight (9:43:05 PM) : i just have a lot of problems
KajraNight (9:43:07 PM) : at the moment
KajraNight (9:43:12 PM) : and i've tried
KajraNight (9:43:12 PM) : to
KajraNight (9:43:17 PM) : limit my friends
Fizzinator2001 (9:43:45 PM) : I've just seen you bee distant, I know we aren't good friends at all really, I run into you, you say we should talk, I try and it seems you don't. I mean, it just seems that if you can be just brushing aside someone like me, whom I've never tried to push myself on you or be a creep, I guess, well, i'm having crap too, and i've learned if you don't address things when you have a chance, they can get worse
Fizzinator2001 (9:45:48 PM) : I guess I just remember you contacting me, remember, you contacted me, and then saw something just fade, with a few odd bright spots, and while I never dwelled on it, sometimes if it sparked, i couldn't help but thing, "Huh, wonder what happened to her?"
Fizzinator2001 (9:48:30 PM) : think*
KajraNight (9:49:35 PM) : one second
KajraNight (9:49:39 PM) : im so overboarded
KajraNight (9:49:45 PM) : I MEAN
KajraNight (9:49:48 PM) : OVERLOADED
KajraNight (9:49:52 PM) : WITH SO MUCH EMOTION
KajraNight (9:49:54 PM) : i can't take in
KajraNight (9:49:56 PM) : what ur saying to me
Fizzinator2001 (9:50:31 PM) : I didn't mean to act like you should pay attention to me more than your drama, but I guess I just wanted to get out there that I wish you weren't scared to just talk with me
Fizzinator2001 (9:52:16 PM) : I'm sorry Kashfia
KajraNight (9:53:11 PM) : its ok
KajraNight (9:53:15 PM) : i dont know
KajraNight (9:53:17 PM) : what to do
Fizzinator2001 (9:55:17 PM) : What do you mean, in what regards?
KajraNight (9:55:58 PM) : things
Fizzinator2001 (9:58:10 PM) : Hmmm..... well, on that note, if things are bad, change them, if they are good, keep them, and if they have no real influence, then don't change a thing (ugh, again with "things", HA!)
KajraNight (9:58:33 PM) : why is it that u want to be friends with me?
KajraNight (9:58:37 PM) : half the ppl u hang out with hate me
Fizzinator2001 (10:00:25 PM) : What do I care? They don't matter to me like that, you seem like someone more interesting than you give yourself credit for, and I guess everyone for that matter, you talked with me, always been nice, maybe cause I don't see the negative like I've heard, it only makes me want to see the other person that is really that
Fizzinator2001 (10:00:28 PM) : there*
Fizzinator2001 (10:01:45 PM) : maybe cause you remind me of one of my past best friends, another girl, of whom I just heard so much shit from, especially from an old girl I was with, but you know what, I decided to not fall into it, and it made all the difference, cause she cared about me enough to give me time, an ear, and a hilariously memorable laugh and smile, she was the tops to me and no one else's opinion mattered
Fizzinator2001 (10:03:12 PM) : Is that why you don't really talk to me? Cause you feel that I will buy into what i might hear? That I'm too close to some 'enemy' you never told me about?
KajraNight (10:03:24 PM) : yes
Fizzinator2001 (10:03:36 PM) : Wow, realy?
KajraNight (10:03:39 PM) : look theres a lot of things wrong with me
KajraNight (10:03:40 PM) : ok?
KajraNight (10:03:46 PM) : and the things u hear might as well be true
Fizzinator2001 (10:03:49 PM) : So what?
Fizzinator2001 (10:03:59 PM) : I mean, so what if there is alot wrong with you
KajraNight (10:04:00 PM) : i think i may have major depression
Fizzinator2001 (10:04:15 PM) : So does every other kid in school
Fizzinator2001 (10:04:27 PM) : Why do you think I'm taking a break from school, cause it was too stressful
Fizzinator2001 (10:04:33 PM) : it happens to the best of us
Fizzinator2001 (10:05:04 PM) : and problems? HA HA, my 'dream girl' (so to speak) was a drunk and junkie
Fizzinator2001 (10:05:21 PM) : but I still believe this is a beautiful person
Fizzinator2001 (10:05:28 PM) : she is*
Fizzinator2001 (10:06:38 PM) : Look, Fiasal is my only friend really with connections to you, at least that I see, but I don't ask about it, and I will admit, when in certain crowds with him, I've heard your name pop up, but I know people have talken shit about me too
Fizzinator2001 (10:08:25 PM) : HA, I had made best friends with a girl at my old school, who was married, had two kids, then got a divorce, she asked me outright to be her friend, and from that day forth, it never stopped, the rumors and gossip my so called 'friends' talked about us, even my vice president of my group, whom was my closest ally, told her to be careful of me, can you believe that? I still used them in the ways I could, and never held it against them, cause I know that in the end, it's me who matters in knowing I did the right thing with her
KajraNight (10:08:59 PM) : u know what?
KajraNight (10:09:05 PM) : im not like that.
KajraNight (10:09:09 PM) : those things they say about me
KajraNight (10:09:12 PM) : still to this day
KajraNight (10:09:16 PM) : i will say im not like that.
KajraNight (10:09:25 PM) : half the people who talk about me
KajraNight (10:09:27 PM) : dont even know me
KajraNight (10:09:43 PM) : nobody has a godamn reason to be talking about me
KajraNight (10:09:55 PM) : except
KajraNight (10:09:59 PM) : for my ex bf
KajraNight (10:10:05 PM) : which i will admit i did make a mistake
KajraNight (10:10:08 PM) : that was partially my fault
KajraNight (10:10:11 PM) : but was out of vain
Fizzinator2001 (10:10:28 PM) : Yeah, but that's everyone, who will really know us? People, they get jealous easily, because they are threatened by strong personalities
Fizzinator2001 (10:11:11 PM) : But Kashfia, that was love, you can't stop that, at the time, I mean, it is so hard, and how can anyone really talk shit about that when they were neither you or him
Fizzinator2001 (10:12:44 PM) : I mean, I really have huge distrust and some resentment towards my ex, cause I tried to keep in contact and help her when she needed, she used me alot, then ran and even yelled at me once, but I still love her (that's different than being "in love with her") and try to tell others, when telling the story, to not hate her, cause that was her and me, they weren't involved
Fizzinator2001 (10:14:56 PM) : You know what, Kashfia? I really don't know what they say about you, except it's possibly more negative than not (sorry to say) but I don't listen to it, cause i guess I felt maybe I would hear it from you, and if that happened, then I woul be able to defend against it, or atleast stand strong knowing the truth
Fizzinator2001 (10:15:07 PM) : Rumors don't sway me too often
Fizzinator2001 (10:15:43 PM) : mainly cause i've seen them up front, with me at the crosshairs as well
KajraNight (10:15:51 PM) : i wish everyone was like u
Fizzinator2001 (10:16:25 PM) : thanks, I'm just me
KajraNight (10:16:57 PM) : wheres faisal
Fizzinator2001 (10:17:04 PM) : he's gabbing on his phone
Fizzinator2001 (10:17:33 PM) : don't know what about or to who
KajraNight (10:17:36 PM) : o
Fizzinator2001 (10:18:10 PM) : i won't let him read this or anything
KajraNight (10:18:53 PM) : thanx
KajraNight (10:18:58 PM) : not that it matter
KajraNight (10:19:00 PM) : matters
Fizzinator2001 (10:19:45 PM) : Are you ok?
KajraNight (10:19:53 PM) : sort of
Fizzinator2001 (10:21:53 PM) : What are you going to do the rest of the night?
KajraNight (10:23:12 PM) : sleep
KajraNight (10:23:16 PM) : its what the good people do
Fizzinator2001 (10:23:26 PM) : ha ha, I guess
Fizzinator2001 (10:23:30 PM) : personally, I'm a night owl
Fizzinator2001 (10:23:47 PM) : I think the good go to sleep, but the heroes are always vigiliant
KajraNight (10:24:39 PM) : oo
KajraNight (10:24:40 PM) : lol
Fizzinator2001 (10:25:04 PM) : he he
Fizzinator2001 (10:25:49 PM) : So, are we going to speak again?
KajraNight (10:26:32 PM) : ya?
KajraNight (10:26:33 PM) : 
Fizzinator2001 (10:26:39 PM) : I will if you will
Fizzinator2001 (10:27:42 PM) :
Fizzinator2001 (10:32:06 PM) : still with me?
KajraNight (10:33:07 PM) : yea
Fizzinator2001 (10:33:32 PM) : Cause you know, that means you have to return a phone call or two
Fizzinator2001 (10:33:45 PM) : and possibly a bugging on aim from time to time
KajraNight (10:33:50 PM) : ok
Fizzinator2001 (10:34:40 PM) : Look, i just think you are more genuinly someone worth getting to know that you think that maybe i do
KajraNight (10:36:33 PM) :
Fizzinator2001 (10:36:38 PM) : he he
Fizzinator2001 (10:36:48 PM) : that smiley face says enough I guess, ha ha
Fizzinator2001 (10:37:26 PM) : You busy this weekend?
KajraNight (10:37:59 PM) : yea i work
Fizzinator2001 (10:38:04 PM) : Ah
Fizzinator2001 (10:38:42 PM) : Well, I close saturday at 9, ,but I had a friends birthday party to go to downtown if you wanted to do something change the pace of things a little
KajraNight (10:38:53 PM) : i wish i could go
KajraNight (10:38:55 PM) : really do
KajraNight (10:38:57 PM) : but i have to be home
Fizzinator2001 (10:39:26 PM) : that's alright, it was only a short notice suggestion
Fizzinator2001 (10:39:54 PM) : But still, we should hang out soon sometime, get a cup of coffee or food
KajraNight (10:40:49 PM) : yea surely
KajraNight (10:40:51 PM) : let me know
KajraNight (10:40:51 PM) : when
Fizzinator2001 (10:41:15 PM) : yeah, well you too, cause I don't know when you work
KajraNight went away at 10:41:25 PM.
Fizzinator2001 (10:41:28 PM) : I am coming to campus tuesday night for the LSU meeting
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