This weekend, after much turmoil, I guess I haven't been as honest as I would have liked to be on this blog. This stupid blog. Just what is a blog? A public announcement of private material to those who can hurt you because of what is written? How can one express themselves in any form of dignity? I have resorted mainly to the ear of a friend, and it's worked a good deal of times. The ear has changed many times, but never the less, it serves me well enough. Still, I guess I want to flesh out my mind on here. Blah blah blah, who cares. My fucking roommate wanted to see a girl i was in love with, but because he doesn't know me, he didn't understand why I would have been so upset, considering I am "with other women" at other times. The problem is, I'm not with other women, as it would sound in that sentence. I am with friends, and allies, those who trust me, and vice versa, so it comes to no surprise that what others see on the surface is not what I know, and others know. Every girl I've been close with will always say they have never met anyone like me, and that's rightfully so. I don't look for friendship or love in the same instance and when I do, I find it hard to choose. Either way, I can be close to some, and distant from others, but it's not always me that sets up these rules. My roommate chose not to understand me in being standoffish, so be it. He was a asshole for doing so and an asshole for trying to use it against me. Fuck him, i don't care how much I care about him, hate isn't the opposite of Love, so fuck him still. You don't do that to a friend, try and divide them against someone you used to be friends with for your own gain.
Either way, he fucked up, and maybe I'll get into it more later, but for now, I am still sick, sick as hell.
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Good for people to know.
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