... Cause Tomorrow Won't Be Different

I was organizing my music the other day, and really got into this beatles remix I found on the internet. It's really cool if you know their music well. I'm such a big Beatles fan. I've almost got their entire library on my computer here. So, today though...I don't know, mine just got a little weirder. This whole entry was going to start out asking questions of life, like what do you do when all of a sudden life just seems to have passed you by so far beyond what you felt it would. I had this friend, he died two summers ago. Then, in the following winter, I found his ex-fiance online. Facebook, myspace. We really got into it, we were best friends at one point. Only, she lived in Steven's Point, and I in Milwaukee. She would visit her relatives here though, so I got to see her, but I was never able to get up there. I tried on Christmas, it was the 6 month anniversary of my friend's passing, so I tried, but it was hard, then I tried in that summer, but at that point, we fell out of communication. At one point, she even "liked" me. But, then, I don't know, I want to say, "life interviened" but that sounds like a circular argument, and doesn't explain anything. Still, she met someone, and suddenly, she was gone. I talked to another friend of her's I knew, one I met and talked with a little too. Tonya, my friend's Fiance and the girl I've been talking about this whole time, I guess is prone to be one of those girls who just abandons her friends for a guy. Even when I called her and finally got ahold of her, the first things she said when I asked where she had been she said, "With my crappy boyfriend". You never say that about someone good for you. And so... the call became less and less, the messages online took forever. occassions and dates would pass, nothing. I gave in, and I guess she did to. Now, on facebook. I saw my friend Doug, who knew my friend who died, wrote on Tonya's page. He just was saying hi and how he thought of our old friend the other day. But then, i saw a change in statue. Goddamn you Facebook. Her status was "Married".... ok? But then, her last name was changed, and then! Was the clincher.. her profile, plus her wall, was littered with congratulations on...... her new child. Her profile picture was her and her son, with her brand new baby boy. Did she get pregnant? Soon after, did she get married? How did this pass me by? Even the last time she tried to say hi, and how I got back to her on that online and then nothing, how did she not even mention it? Not a word of anything? Did she keep it from me, knowing the nature and the closeness we had, and the connection I had with Dominic (my deceased friend) and that we shared with his spirit too? Did she keep it from me? I don't know what to think. I can't be upset, but can I be happy for her? Life wasn't supposed to be like this. Now, she is just another statistic minority. Two children, non-graduate, single parent, from a single parent family. It wasn't supposed to be this way. I mean, she was supposed to move out here. We were supposed to be there for each other. She helped me and vice versa. To get over our loves, to get closure on death, it was amazing, it was fate, it was hope and love and charm and God. But then.... what happened? How can I not even try to not cry at all this. My friend... I don't know, but I felt something said, "watch her, just to make sure things are ok for him" but then. She fell through in coming to school, stopped trying, didnt' get a place to live, nor a job, stayed for a "guy" not a man, and then... the stereotype took place. It makes me want to act more responsible, to not fall into the same trap, to stay above the rest, even though I have a better support network, what if I didn't? So now, she is up there, forever. One kid, she could do it, her mother was to help, but with two, it will never be. Cause now what? I am going to have to miss her, forever now. I wanted to see her before, oh so bad, but she was living with that guy. How can I see someone and try to find out if she is ok, if she is happy, when someone is there looking over our shoulders? Now I can't begin again, cause I'm just another guy now. If I was there this whole time, it would be different, but now, I am someone too far withdrawn to even go that far. A wedding at best, then... obscurity. I hate the relationship of the troubled girl and the good guy. Cause as the good guy, I never touch, I only watch, and sometimes push them along, and then, when you least expect it, and when you even advise against it, another guy, the ones you vowed to never be, they come in. They aren't always unhappy endings.... but more than likely, the people I meet and fall in love with, yeah, that's the jist of it. So anyways, I guess.... I'll just keep on living.

Nothing Can Change This [You Know the Word]

Goddamn it, I have fucking Angela. This girl seems to pride herself on smart and bold dissisions over her life, that she is somehow better by commiting herself to a chosen path that may be less than ideal, but the most important is she commits to making something all her's. I guess that's a neat idea, but it's full of shit. I hate hearing her life. It makes me want to cry myself to sleep every night over the girl I am still so passionate about after all these years. I hate the fuck out of it. I mean, it's so dissappointing to hear from this girl. First it's the weight gain, then it's the horrid dive of a cafe she works in, with her gambling, strip bar attending, pig of a boss. Then it's the men who just hit on her in sick and disgusting ways, then it's the new waitress with her boyfriend's reply to Angela's offer of a drink, "Only if it's crack." Then it's the "best friend" decision to up and leave to LA with her drugy and pig of a boyfriend (who hit on Angela at a wedding they all attended together). I mean, can this be more sad? I always hear this shit, it never ends! It's the cop who she makes out with! The rebound guy after me, probably 7 years older than her, who spied on us in my blogs. Then it's the sick fuck after that whom broke up with her when she asked if he would still see her if she wanted to not have sex anymore. Then it's back to the spy guy again, whom she ditched her aunt to live with. I mean, if it's not hearing about her going to pride fest with her gay friends, then it's about the woman she picked up one night who asked for a ride and also took to get backing soda to heal her "upset stomach" (probably to also cut crack with). I don't know what it is. I mean, she is always surrounded by evil people, messed up people, and those who are just dumb all around. I mean, her friend in LA. This is the type of friend's she puts stock into? A girl who can't even see that a drug addict is not good for someone to date? She hooked Angela up with her present "venture", so how is her opinion and ideas of a "good man" even valid when she can't even get her own shit together? Now, granted, I guess I can say I'm around the same people at times. The girl who's family abused her, and boyfriend who tried to rape her. The woman who got divorced with two kids, then also got kidnapped by some drug dealer. The girl who got raped and came back from college. The girl who got raped before I went to college. I guess maybe these others are sort of odd too. But the difference is, I am their support, and Angela... she looks to those others for her support. I don't mean to say I don't ask for support from my friends who have problems, cause they do become true friends, and are to start out with, but when push comes to shove, it's me who comes to the rescue no matter when, or where. Angela, she isn't that type. She......................................... does she do anything? All these people... I just see them as keeping her down. Fuck their intentions. Everyone is a "good person" but when you see her yelling at me, telling me she needs someone more focused in her life. I mean, after about 4 odd places of living, with a couple of odd and controlling relationships, just who is getting farther in life? I have a good support network, and she has none, so I can't claim I'm better off than her. But I do know those who love me and claim a friendship... they are real, they are people, they love and fight hard for values and purpose driven ideals.... While Angela's.... well, she is the one that tells me she does have..... any friends.....

The Random Coat

I had some pretty extremely odd dreams lately. maybe it's becuase I've just been depressed, for the first real time in awhile. I don't know what it is. It prevents me from doing anything really. But the most detailed piece of my dream was when I was home with my grandmother, or something. I was watching American Splendor, and the character in the movie is a file clerk at a hospital. Well in my dream, so was I, or atleast a doctors office. So something about me being in the office, but also me being at hoime, digging through boxes. I was at my apartment but at my house in mukwonago, and I remember my grandma being there. So I'm finishing with my room at my place but at my house, and I saw a couple of things I had not put away, they looked like pants but then I saw they wer coats. one was green, the other was brown. they were both distinctly girls jackets, with the smaller cut, the brown one with that fake fur on the hood and blue and read, maybe randown colors inside the hood with hearts and junk. So, I knew I didn't know who's the green one was. but I swear I knew who's the brown one was. I kept checking the pockets. They contained itmes of an individual who practicly lived out of her clothes. Toothpaste, tooth brush, pens and all sorts of junk. A brian cabrera cd I remember, HA HA! And finally, the clue I had been looking for. A spare key to a toyota vehicle. The white small station wagon toyota that Angela used to drive. I was so excited. I had something of her's to give back to her. Something to see her for. It was so real, to get it back to her. But when I woke, it wasn't. I don't know why I had that dream, it was odd, but well, I'm sure the Angela in that story still resembled the one I fell in love with... verses the one I hardly recognize anymore.

Death of a MySpace

We've all seen it before, we've all heard it before, maybe not all of us have actually experienced it enough, but those who try to live a life of carefree and opptimism, they are usually the ones who are downtrodden, and beaten by this aweful online system of friendships and relationships and networkings. It's amazing the diversity of friends and knowledge you can create, but it's also an undoing once you actually meet real people. if you have a loved one, prepare for a new phase of offensive.

103 Degrees is Close Enough to Hell that I want

This weekend, after much turmoil, I guess I haven't been as honest as I would have liked to be on this blog. This stupid blog. Just what is a blog? A public announcement of private material to those who can hurt you because of what is written? How can one express themselves in any form of dignity? I have resorted mainly to the ear of a friend, and it's worked a good deal of times. The ear has changed many times, but never the less, it serves me well enough. Still, I guess I want to flesh out my mind on here. Blah blah blah, who cares. My fucking roommate wanted to see a girl i was in love with, but because he doesn't know me, he didn't understand why I would have been so upset, considering I am "with other women" at other times. The problem is, I'm not with other women, as it would sound in that sentence. I am with friends, and allies, those who trust me, and vice versa, so it comes to no surprise that what others see on the surface is not what I know, and others know. Every girl I've been close with will always say they have never met anyone like me, and that's rightfully so. I don't look for friendship or love in the same instance and when I do, I find it hard to choose. Either way, I can be close to some, and distant from others, but it's not always me that sets up these rules. My roommate chose not to understand me in being standoffish, so be it. He was a asshole for doing so and an asshole for trying to use it against me. Fuck him, i don't care how much I care about him, hate isn't the opposite of Love, so fuck him still. You don't do that to a friend, try and divide them against someone you used to be friends with for your own gain.

Either way, he fucked up, and maybe I'll get into it more later, but for now, I am still sick, sick as hell.

Even the French can Fuck Off

But the Heroes are always vigilant

Fizzinator2001 (9:26:33 PM): Hey!

KajraNight (9:26:38 PM): hi

Fizzinator2001 (9:26:49 PM): Guess who

KajraNight (9:26:59 PM): i dont know

KajraNight (9:27:02 PM): faisal?

Fizzinator2001 (9:27:08 PM): close\

KajraNight (9:27:12 PM): i dont know

Fizzinator2001 (9:27:13 PM): I am dark

Fizzinator2001 (9:27:16 PM): and have glasses

Fizzinator2001 (9:27:22 PM): when I don't have my contacts

Fizzinator2001 (9:27:29 PM): Um, I am better looking

KajraNight (9:27:36 PM): i dont know

Fizzinator2001 (9:27:43 PM): Mexican

Fizzinator2001 (9:27:53 PM): I'm a Mexi-CAN

Fizzinator2001 (9:27:59 PM): Alright, it's Dominguez

KajraNight (9:28:04 PM): o hi

Fizzinator2001 (9:28:23 PM): Whoa, don't sound so enthusiastic

KajraNight (9:28:31 PM): no no

KajraNight (9:28:31 PM): sorry

KajraNight (9:28:34 PM): i just had

KajraNight (9:28:36 PM): a bad day

Fizzinator2001 (9:28:46 PM): Yeah? What happened?

KajraNight (9:28:55 PM): lots of things

Fizzinator2001 (9:30:07 PM): Hmm, things suck, esspecially when they happen in a dense capacity

KajraNight (9:30:17 PM): yea

Fizzinator2001 (9:30:34 PM): um, if it makes you feel better, I hate my roommate right about now

Fizzinator2001 (9:31:55 PM): so come on, fill me in, it's been awhile since we've even talked, what's going on

KajraNight (9:32:12 PM): really nothing

KajraNight (9:32:13 PM): just

KajraNight (9:32:17 PM): everything

KajraNight (9:32:20 PM): that

KajraNight (9:32:21 PM): happens to me

KajraNight (9:32:24 PM): lately

KajraNight (9:32:25 PM): i mean

KajraNight (9:32:27 PM): everything

KajraNight (9:32:32 PM): that has been happening to me

KajraNight (9:32:37 PM): has been bad

Fizzinator2001 (9:33:36 PM): is someone messing with you?

KajraNight (9:33:41 PM): kind of

Fizzinator2001 (9:34:03 PM): who

KajraNight (9:35:28 PM): just some people

Fizzinator2001 (9:35:31 PM): you're still mixed in that drama from last year, aren't you

KajraNight (9:35:38 PM): kind of

KajraNight (9:35:39 PM): not

KajraNight (9:35:41 PM): thought

KajraNight (9:35:43 PM): though

KajraNight (9:35:45 PM): it came back today

Fizzinator2001 (9:36:01 PM): why, what happened today?

KajraNight (9:38:01 PM): its nothing

KajraNight (9:38:02 PM): really..

Fizzinator2001 (9:39:22 PM): Come on Kashfia, I've been trying to be your friend for sometime, you've got to let somebody in, I mean, I'm just trying to talk to you. Sorry if that sounds stern or mean

KajraNight (9:39:32 PM): no its ok

KajraNight (9:39:38 PM): why are u talking from faisals sn?

Fizzinator2001 (9:40:05 PM): cause I'm at his place, he's running around doing stuff, so I was just fooling around on his computer

Fizzinator2001 (9:40:58 PM): his aim was open, I saw your name, figured you don't really talk to me on my name, and I just wanted to say hi, and maybe just a little more than hi, cause that's all I ever get

KajraNight (9:41:12 PM): im sorry

KajraNight (9:42:57 PM): I'll try to be a better friend

KajraNight (9:42:59 PM): idont know

KajraNight (9:43:05 PM): i just have a lot of problems

KajraNight (9:43:07 PM): at the moment

KajraNight (9:43:12 PM): and i've tried

KajraNight (9:43:12 PM): to

KajraNight (9:43:17 PM): limit my friends

Fizzinator2001 (9:43:45 PM): I've just seen you bee distant, I know we aren't good friends at all really, I run into you, you say we should talk, I try and it seems you don't. I mean, it just seems that if you can be just brushing aside someone like me, whom I've never tried to push myself on you or be a creep, I guess, well, i'm having crap too, and i've learned if you don't address things when you have a chance, they can get worse

Fizzinator2001 (9:45:48 PM): I guess I just remember you contacting me, remember, you contacted me, and then saw something just fade, with a few odd bright spots, and while I never dwelled on it, sometimes if it sparked, i couldn't help but thing, "Huh, wonder what happened to her?"

Fizzinator2001 (9:48:30 PM): think*

KajraNight (9:49:35 PM): one second

KajraNight (9:49:39 PM): im so overboarded

KajraNight (9:49:45 PM): I MEAN

KajraNight (9:49:48 PM): OVERLOADED

KajraNight (9:49:52 PM): WITH SO MUCH EMOTION

KajraNight (9:49:54 PM): i can't take in

KajraNight (9:49:56 PM): what ur saying to me

Fizzinator2001 (9:50:31 PM): I didn't mean to act like you should pay attention to me more than your drama, but I guess I just wanted to get out there that I wish you weren't scared to just talk with me

Fizzinator2001 (9:52:16 PM): I'm sorry Kashfia

KajraNight (9:53:11 PM): its ok

KajraNight (9:53:15 PM): i dont know

KajraNight (9:53:17 PM): what to do

Fizzinator2001 (9:55:17 PM): What do you mean, in what regards?

KajraNight (9:55:58 PM): things

Fizzinator2001 (9:58:10 PM): Hmmm..... well, on that note, if things are bad, change them, if they are good, keep them, and if they have no real influence, then don't change a thing (ugh, again with "things", HA!)

KajraNight (9:58:33 PM): why is it that u want to be friends with me?

KajraNight (9:58:37 PM): half the ppl u hang out with hate me

Fizzinator2001 (10:00:25 PM): What do I care? They don't matter to me like that, you seem like someone more interesting than you give yourself credit for, and I guess everyone for that matter, you talked with me, always been nice, maybe cause I don't see the negative like I've heard, it only makes me want to see the other person that is really that

Fizzinator2001 (10:00:28 PM): there*

Fizzinator2001 (10:01:45 PM): maybe cause you remind me of one of my past best friends, another girl, of whom I just heard so much shit from, especially from an old girl I was with, but you know what, I decided to not fall into it, and it made all the difference, cause she cared about me enough to give me time, an ear, and a hilariously memorable laugh and smile, she was the tops to me and no one else's opinion mattered

Fizzinator2001 (10:03:12 PM): Is that why you don't really talk to me? Cause you feel that I will buy into what i might hear? That I'm too close to some 'enemy' you never told me about?

KajraNight (10:03:24 PM): yes

Fizzinator2001 (10:03:36 PM): Wow, realy?

KajraNight (10:03:39 PM): look theres a lot of things wrong with me

KajraNight (10:03:40 PM): ok?

KajraNight (10:03:46 PM): and the things u hear might as well be true

Fizzinator2001 (10:03:49 PM): So what?

Fizzinator2001 (10:03:59 PM): I mean, so what if there is alot wrong with you

KajraNight (10:04:00 PM): i think i may have major depression

Fizzinator2001 (10:04:15 PM): So does every other kid in school

Fizzinator2001 (10:04:27 PM): Why do you think I'm taking a break from school, cause it was too stressful

Fizzinator2001 (10:04:33 PM): it happens to the best of us

Fizzinator2001 (10:05:04 PM): and problems? HA HA, my 'dream girl' (so to speak) was a drunk and junkie

Fizzinator2001 (10:05:21 PM): but I still believe this is a beautiful person

Fizzinator2001 (10:05:28 PM): she is*

Fizzinator2001 (10:06:38 PM): Look, Fiasal is my only friend really with connections to you, at least that I see, but I don't ask about it, and I will admit, when in certain crowds with him, I've heard your name pop up, but I know people have talken shit about me too

Fizzinator2001 (10:08:25 PM): HA, I had made best friends with a girl at my old school, who was married, had two kids, then got a divorce, she asked me outright to be her friend, and from that day forth, it never stopped, the rumors and gossip my so called 'friends' talked about us, even my vice president of my group, whom was my closest ally, told her to be careful of me, can you believe that? I still used them in the ways I could, and never held it against them, cause I know that in the end, it's me who matters in knowing I did the right thing with her

KajraNight (10:08:59 PM): u know what?

KajraNight (10:09:05 PM): im not like that.

KajraNight (10:09:09 PM): those things they say about me

KajraNight (10:09:12 PM): still to this day

KajraNight (10:09:16 PM): i will say im not like that.

KajraNight (10:09:25 PM): half the people who talk about me

KajraNight (10:09:27 PM): dont even know me

KajraNight (10:09:43 PM): nobody has a godamn reason to be talking about me

KajraNight (10:09:55 PM): except

KajraNight (10:09:59 PM): for my ex bf

KajraNight (10:10:05 PM): which i will admit i did make a mistake

KajraNight (10:10:08 PM): that was partially my fault

KajraNight (10:10:11 PM): but was out of vain

Fizzinator2001 (10:10:28 PM): Yeah, but that's everyone, who will really know us? People, they get jealous easily, because they are threatened by strong personalities

Fizzinator2001 (10:11:11 PM): But Kashfia, that was love, you can't stop that, at the time, I mean, it is so hard, and how can anyone really talk shit about that when they were neither you or him

Fizzinator2001 (10:12:44 PM): I mean, I really have huge distrust and some resentment towards my ex, cause I tried to keep in contact and help her when she needed, she used me alot, then ran and even yelled at me once, but I still love her (that's different than being "in love with her") and try to tell others, when telling the story, to not hate her, cause that was her and me, they weren't involved

Fizzinator2001 (10:14:56 PM): You know what, Kashfia? I really don't know what they say about you, except it's possibly more negative than not (sorry to say) but I don't listen to it, cause i guess I felt maybe I would hear it from you, and if that happened, then I woul be able to defend against it, or atleast stand strong knowing the truth

Fizzinator2001 (10:15:07 PM): Rumors don't sway me too often

Fizzinator2001 (10:15:43 PM): mainly cause i've seen them up front, with me at the crosshairs as well

KajraNight (10:15:51 PM): i wish everyone was like u

Fizzinator2001 (10:16:25 PM): thanks, I'm just me

KajraNight (10:16:57 PM): wheres faisal

Fizzinator2001 (10:17:04 PM): he's gabbing on his phone

Fizzinator2001 (10:17:33 PM): don't know what about or to who

KajraNight (10:17:36 PM): o

Fizzinator2001 (10:18:10 PM): i won't let him read this or anything

KajraNight (10:18:53 PM): thanx

KajraNight (10:18:58 PM): not that it matter

KajraNight (10:19:00 PM): matters

Fizzinator2001 (10:19:45 PM): Are you ok?

KajraNight (10:19:53 PM): sort of

Fizzinator2001 (10:21:53 PM): What are you going to do the rest of the night?

KajraNight (10:23:12 PM): sleep

KajraNight (10:23:16 PM): its what the good people do

Fizzinator2001 (10:23:26 PM): ha ha, I guess

Fizzinator2001 (10:23:30 PM): personally, I'm a night owl

Fizzinator2001 (10:23:47 PM): I think the good go to sleep, but the heroes are always vigiliant

KajraNight (10:24:39 PM): oo

KajraNight (10:24:40 PM): lol

Fizzinator2001 (10:25:04 PM): he he

Fizzinator2001 (10:25:49 PM): So, are we going to speak again?

KajraNight (10:26:32 PM): ya?

KajraNight (10:26:33 PM):

Fizzinator2001 (10:26:39 PM): I will if you will

Fizzinator2001 (10:27:42 PM):

Fizzinator2001 (10:32:06 PM): still with me?

KajraNight (10:33:07 PM): yea

Fizzinator2001 (10:33:32 PM): Cause you know, that means you have to return a phone call or two

Fizzinator2001 (10:33:45 PM): and possibly a bugging on aim from time to time

KajraNight (10:33:50 PM): ok

Fizzinator2001 (10:34:40 PM): Look, i just think you are more genuinly someone worth getting to know that you think that maybe i do

KajraNight (10:36:33 PM):

Fizzinator2001 (10:36:38 PM): he he

Fizzinator2001 (10:36:48 PM): that smiley face says enough I guess, ha ha

Fizzinator2001 (10:37:26 PM): You busy this weekend?

KajraNight (10:37:59 PM): yea i work

Fizzinator2001 (10:38:04 PM): Ah

Fizzinator2001 (10:38:42 PM): Well, I close saturday at 9, ,but I had a friends birthday party to go to downtown if you wanted to do something change the pace of things a little

KajraNight (10:38:53 PM): i wish i could go

KajraNight (10:38:55 PM): really do

KajraNight (10:38:57 PM): but i have to be home

Fizzinator2001 (10:39:26 PM): that's alright, it was only a short notice suggestion

Fizzinator2001 (10:39:54 PM): But still, we should hang out soon sometime, get a cup of coffee or food

KajraNight (10:40:49 PM): yea surely

KajraNight (10:40:51 PM): let me know

KajraNight (10:40:51 PM): when

Fizzinator2001 (10:41:15 PM): yeah, well you too, cause I don't know when you work

KajraNight went away at 10:41:25 PM.

Fizzinator2001 (10:41:28 PM): I am coming to campus tuesday night for the LSU meeting

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Auto Response from KajraNight (10:41:29 PM): When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

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Advice for Rob

Fisal: Be straight up, tell rob to stop fucking around and pissing me off and you don't want me to be pissed off. Call September and tell her straight up that if she wants to get with my roommate, then do it, but if you want to be my friend and come back and say you are sorry then stop all this and respect me.

R.I.P. George Habash

SPAWN XVII (8:26:55 PM): HEY!

player ezlife (8:27:16 PM): hey man

SPAWN XVII (8:27:47 PM): How you doing?

player ezlife (8:28:13 PM): swamped with bookwork..but other than that fantastic

player ezlife (8:28:15 PM): lol

SPAWN XVII (8:28:22 PM): ha ha

SPAWN XVII (8:28:46 PM): I hear yah, work was a bit of a mess today, I mean, I had some help, but really, he didn't even really do anything that helped me at all

SPAWN XVII (8:28:47 PM): bah!

player ezlife (8:29:12 PM): man

SPAWN XVII (8:29:20 PM): Hey, did you hear about George Habash?

player ezlife (8:29:32 PM): no wat happened

SPAWN XVII (8:29:49 PM): He passed away today, he had a heart attack

player ezlife (8:30:06 PM): wow

SPAWN XVII (8:30:41 PM): I've been reading about it and about him all day

player ezlife (8:30:48 PM): wow

SPAWN XVII (8:31:24 PM): http://english.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/3E4F1FD5-CB24-407F-AC7C-94C4AF97E293.htm

SPAWN XVII (8:32:09 PM): I read something about him that spoke volumes about just what is really going on, or what the media and the government doesn't want us to understand what is really going on

SPAWN XVII (8:33:19 PM): They refuse to have it be shown as a secular movement, the resistance of israel, that's one thing, but I mean, just reading about him, I was startled to find out, he was a Christian

player ezlife (8:33:40 PM): wow

SPAWN XVII (8:34:36 PM): A Catholic no less, Greek Orthodox. Al Jazeera was the only one to even mention a Mass before his burial at a Latin Church

player ezlife (8:34:51 PM): wow

SPAWN XVII (8:35:17 PM): And I just saw, that all along, all I've seen is manipulation in what is told to us and what is shown to us here in the U.S. and how the brainwashing is always about "us verses them"

player ezlife (8:35:38 PM): geez

SPAWN XVII (8:35:49 PM): The Christians, and Jews and Muslims

SPAWN XVII (8:37:10 PM): It just seems to me that it's not even known this guy, a Catholic Marxist, was one of the largest players in the movement and it seems to me, at the very least, that if people really knew that, they would be amazed it's not just this black and white fight, but a huge grey battle of, not ideologies, but of people verses people, just wanting to be at an equal playing groun with one another

player ezlife (8:38:37 PM): wo wo slow down

SPAWN XVII (8:38:50 PM): cause if they knew it was christians verses jews as well, people would be confused because this country so identifies it'self with christianity, if they some how were able to start identifying with the palestinians in anyways the government knows their actions and support would be called into question

player ezlife (8:42:52 PM): yea thats tru

SPAWN XVII (8:43:19 PM): yeah..

SPAWN XVII (8:49:54 PM): well, I guess that's enough deep thought for today

player ezlife (8:50:05 PM): haha

player ezlife (8:50:14 PM): yea man lay low

SPAWN XVII (8:50:31 PM): I mean, that one, yikes, that doozy is going to last me the whole WEEK!

player ezlife (8:50:46 PM): lol

SPAWN XVII (8:55:19 PM): good day other wise? How's class, teach?

player ezlife (8:56:43 PM): i canceled the first discussion

SPAWN XVII (8:56:54 PM): cool ass

player ezlife (8:57:01 PM): the school didn't order my book in time

SPAWN XVII (8:57:06 PM): you had more 'important' things to do

SPAWN XVII (8:57:11 PM): Ah!

player ezlife (8:57:14 PM): so next week is gonna be a 50 min crunch

SPAWN XVII (8:57:38 PM): task master Ahmad, coming at cha! *whip snap*

player ezlife (8:58:05 PM): hahah

SPAWN XVII (9:13:17 PM): wow, here's something man

player ezlife (9:13:48 PM): wat

SPAWN XVII (9:16:09 PM): waitin

SPAWN XVII (9:25:16 PM): Rob just came home and I was talking about the Palestinian movement and more I dig deeper, the more I see how much communism played a role in the nationalist movements for palestine. He saw this documentary about Jews, cause after WWII the they said in this documentary, that alot of them were communist, trying to get equality, and saying, "COMMUNISM! LET'S GET OUR OWN COUNTRY!" and after that, palestinians were saying, "COMMUNISM! LET'S GET OUR COUNTRY BACK!" So, i mean, it's the same people fighting each other! Same ideals. I mean, we aren't as different as they want us to believe, you know.

player ezlife (9:27:20 PM): oh yeah i totally agree 100%

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