You Deserve More than a Lover

look, i wasn't trying to upset you, I was trying to get you to talk and maybe get you out of your mood

all of our status updates are based on an instant mood

something tells me that there is a lot going on in your life right now, more than just the shoes

and it always seems since we've last hung out, you've been pretty terse with me as well.

I mean, I don't know you, not at all, it's been over 3 weeks since we've last hung out, or even honestly talked for more than a few minutes. I want to know whats going on with you. I mean, i don't play games, you said you didn't want to, so you know I'm not trying to get close for some random average guy bullshit. You seem to have a lot of great traits, and I want to tap into them. But also know I'm not just trying to be with you, I want to get to know you.

Now I was going to try once more to have a real normal talk with you, maybe consider you are just too busy as of late, but when we first hung out, you didn't even know me, and still made time for me, twice in a row, and even after that, talked to me all my way home, saying you're attracted to me, you've told your mom all about me, and were excited "to see where this goes" and.... it really hasn't gone anywhere. Seems like you're avoiding me.

what's with all the distance- is something bothering you? I'm just curious, I've been wondering about you.

I mean, you asked me that first night, "why do guys come off all super excited, and then cool off suddenly?" I told you it was a control issue, something to make people steamed enough to get that person stuck in someones head. Well, I could ask that of girls, cause it seems like that's what going on, and girl, you're stuck in mine.

I'm just saying I'll be there for you, cause you know I'm not about games, so this is the truth to you, cause I'm too old to be playing that shit, time to grow up. And honestly, I want to, and would love to see that with you too, because you told me in your life, men have come and gone (if you can call them 'men') and once they got what they wanted from you, they left. That all you've had were lovers.

Norma, I just want you to know, that you deserve more than just a lover, (and I've been dying forever to let you know that face to face) you deserve a friend, you deserve a relationship. You deserves a hand, and a heart, and a hug and hold. Don't be like everyone else, achieve your dream, because of what I know so far, from the girl I didn't know, who told me all her aspirations, you are better than the rest who surround us. So, if at least you choose to not answer me, know that you are something that is better.

Don't shoot me out of your life to quickly, because while you dropped your guard those first few nights, I didn't.... until you told me you were excited to see where we were to go, and now, I can't stop thinking about you.

Hopefully, I'll talk to you soon, but honestly, I had to let it out. God bless, and with a little luck, I'll talk to you soon.

play it off like you're curious about her and wondering about her well0beeing and all that

but also be prepared to hear what she has to say even if you don't like it

And the whole world was out Oyster!

Alex

Hey, David

9:47pmDavid

hey

9:48pmAlex

Remember that one time it was like super insane outside at UW-Waukesha, and it was like Hurrican type conditions?

9:48pmDavid

haha

yeah!

9:48pmAlex

and then I ran outside from the computer lab, and ran in the rain, and yelled at the sky, "IS THAT THE BEST YOU CAN DO?!?!?!"

9:48pmDavid

hahaha

yes, I remember that

I love thunderstorms!

I miss UW-Waukesha because of times like those :)\

:)

9:49pmAlex

I know

I miss those days too

Man, the whole world was our oyster!

9:50pmDavid

yeah

I just GOT TO KNOW!

Alex

Bah!

9:52pmDiana

wassup mang

9:53pmAlex

remember that damn girl I was complaining about?

9:53pmDiana

yupp

9:54pmAlex

i kind of tried to confront her

just on here, said hi, she was all like, "HEY! HOW ARE YOU!?!?"

I talked a little then was like, where have you been? she said she was busy, i said I wasn't sure if she was blowing me off, she said she wasn't, and that she was ok, then when I finally get into just trying to make small talk about the day, she logs off

DAAMN IT!

9:56pmDiana

it sounds like she doesn't have much on her mind

lol

did you try calling her straight up?

9:56pmAlex

no

I was trying to see if she would contact me

9:57pmDiana

call tosee what happpens

thats my advice!

9:59pmAlex

just call her now?

10:02pmAlex

?

10:04pmDiana

um no

like at a normal time

lol

10:04pmAlex

ok

I was going to text her, "Well, I guess when you have more time for me, just contact me." or should I just wait to call at a decent nite sometime?"

10:05pmDiana

2nd option

10:06pmAlex

ok

10:09pmAlex

i'll calm down

this girl is driving me nuts

she's a conundrum, and I HAVE TO SOLVE IT!

10:11pmDiana

lol ok

what if you ju stdont care

what woul dhappen

10:12pmAlex

i'd be pissed

10:13pmAlex

fine, whatever

10:13pmDiana

what

did something serious happen

cuz it seems like you're really invested in this person

maybe i am just missing something here

10:14pmAlex

well, yeah, i am!

she took this insane chance on me, exposed herself, heart and soul to me, got my heart all spun in a bunch, gave me a kiss, told me she told her mom all about me, said she's nuts about me, then stops talking to me and I JUST NEED TO KNOW!

THAT'S A BIG FUCKING DEAL!@

10:16pmDiana

okay

dont get mad at me, shoo

i didn't know all that info lol

10:16pmAlex

yeah, I know

10:16pmDiana

dang sounds kinda bogus now that you told me all that!

10:16pmAlex

it's just been building up in my mind, it's been tearing me up

10:16pmDiana

you should just call her right now

and be like dude wtf is your issue?

10:22pmAlex

hmmm

yeah?

10:22pmDiana

if jonathan did that to me

oooooo

it would juts downright piss me off

playin me like that

10:28pmAlex

I think I should

not tonight, i'm too flustered at the moment

10:28pmDiana

yea

sory alex

10:28pmAlex

and it's so late

10:29pmDiana

i didn't know ya'll had developed that much intimacy in your relationship

but yea if she was avoiding you or soemthing like that ... she's gotta just be real and end it more maturely

10:30pmAlex

yeah

well, it was only 3 days, but all in a row, and her saying she was excited to see where this was going to go

10:34pmDiana

hrms

i see

10:34pmAlex

so I don't know, I did everything right keeping my guard up, but once I let it down after that night, she canceled on me once, then stood me up the next

so i'm a little on edge

10:35pmDiana

well ya just call er up and be like yoo waddups. what's with all the distance- is something bothering you?

play it off like you're curious about her and wondering about her well0beeing and all that

but also be prepared to hear what she has to say even if you dont like it

10:37pmAlex

yeah, whats with the distance, is something bothering you?

that sounds good

ugh, i should wait for another day though

10:37pmDiana

yea just call tomorrow

aite son i gotta sleep

early day tomorrow

jonathan is playing magic the gathering tonight until ike 2 in the morning

give him a text to go to bed

LOL

he'll be surprised

dont tell him i said anything tho!

10:38pmAlex

ha ha

ok

thanks, diana

10:38pmDiana

no prob

night!

10:39pmAlex

Good night