Sea of Pointless Pussy

it is my renouned discourse, whatever that means, to never go to sleep again, long have I wasted my life, or atleast these past few precious years, i say three, asleep and alone and a dying desperate soulles shell of a man. is this what happens to people? those 40 somethings with the kids that they order around, the out of touch woman, the alooff woman mindlessly sorting the books on the donate section of the fair, feeling like she is the most imoortant woman of the show, shooing off the kids who so badly need a parent figure and just want to help, she shoos them away as if working on a atomic bomb, how trite, and predicatble thios diatrie is going, never the less, my writting styles are not what they used to be. I hate whatt my i hate what my malnutrition has done to me. Soda has wasted my life, and mcdonalds should send my fucking kid to college, or a or atleast pay off my college loans of the money I shat down their fucking throats. I need a hobbie, or atleast a purpose in life. I have been asleep for way to long, this revolutionary that could have accomplished anything. Whats alex doing they wonder?? is he out busy saving the world yea yet? no, he is siotting up watching his microsoft xbox 360, watching netflix, on his friends i mac macbook, and in all honestly, just plain pissed, anyways, he's sad, sad that maybe his prayers don't work anymore, sad that no one even remebers he prayes anymore. he's sad that this is probably the most writing his he's done in agesr ages. It's sad that he's even scared to write, to confront his own fears of even confronting his angers and failures. Meanwhile, he had a second chance he had a second chance and now, since he blew it, with self malase and anger, hre fucked it all up by being sorry for himself, being drained by the one mexican girl he had a shot with a blew it, letting her fuck his mind up years after it was over, never will I pick up the calls again, always will I remmber my abuelitas advice to her advice to never look back, always look fora forward. His girl may his girl may be pregnant again because, well, lets face it, i'm patheitic, I sit in a statistic now, along with the rest of the fucking world. So goes the little gy, the one that believes that he is above the rest, even while living amounst them. Maybe this is the begining of tn the next obama, spelling errors and all, watching the best series i've seen in a swhile, Californication, (it must be applauded) or maybe these writings will be lost in the corprate giant google, and now they are the ownership of them too. I think that maybe I should be brave, see what happens with my girl, because she is now mine, well, lets just hope that i can actually earn some money, and at the very least, live the american dream, which I guess is to stay alive long enough to get government health care.